Why I felt lonely/ confused
Date: 10th January 2022
What I feel right now is weird. I don’t lack anywhere in friendship, family, or romance (I don’t have a gf but still). At first, I was confused but after thinking for a long time I feel this is because I don’t know what to do. No goals. No missions.
And when someone doesn’t know what to do in any situation or at any point in time they lose hope which is what I exactly feel right now. because all our life we’ve been told what to do and completing the task results in a reward and failing to do so results in punishment. And for the first time in my life, I’ve not been told what to do.
School is over, CA exams are done, I’m no longer with people who control me, I don’t have a gf, and my parents aren’t controlling types either. I’m now wholly responsible for my actions and my time for the coming 2 months.
I cannot blame anybody for it. This is scary because there’s nobody to tell me what to do and awesome because there’s nobody to tell me what to do.
I think this is the reason I was feeling low and confused for the last few days. But now that I know what’s wrong I’m gonna work on it.