I have a problem. I’m becoming too lazy. When I started I thought I don’t need any motivation to do my work because I have a higher purpose established in my mind but now I have no motivation to do what I’m supposed to do. And this is weird because I often come here and write down my thoughts and then go back to my old routine. I don’t know what the problem is.

Is it because I’m not getting enough engagement from others? because if this is the reason then I’m done. I’m proving my own beliefs wrong; the belief that I don’t need others’ approval or validation.

I’m not getting results or clarity for both short-term and long-term goals. In the short term, I’m not doing anything and so can’t see any results and for the long term, I think I’m taking a lot of risks. no degree, no internship, no money. I always thought if things didn’t work out, I’ll live in poverty in the long run if I have to, but now I’m doubting that. Do I have it in me to live in poverty for living my purpose?

FUCKINGGG HELLLLL